Wednesdays! Blah!

Why are Wednesday's so blah?
My to do lists for Wednesdays usually consist of laundry, laundry and more laundry...
Why is it that children happen to wet the bed on tuesday nights? Do they know that Wednesdays always seem like laundry day for mom?

I woke up this morning at 5:20 am. That is when I have my alarm set because I can hit snooze once and then make my hubby get up at 5:30. I then reach under my pillow to get my thermometer to take my temp to chart later in the morning. As I said in my first post, I am actively TTC child #3 with not a whole lot of luck.

Five minutes after I took my temp., my son comes in to tell me that he had wet the bed and had a bad dream. He wanted to tell me all about the dream. I told him to go change and come crawl in bed with me. Are we supposed to discuss bad dreams? I know from experience that when I talk about my dreams, I remember them. If I don't talk about them, I forget them within the same day. My question to myself is: Is it wrong to not let the children tell you what scared them awake? Sometimes I let them tell me and sometimes I don't. Just depends usually on how tired I am.

At 6am Billy (my husband) comes in and tells me to get up and POAS (pee on a stick aka/preg test). So I got up and did that then went back to bed. Don't really know why I go back to bed. Billy leaves for work at 6:30 and I get up at 6:50. He makes a point to be as loud as possible in the mornings and come in and ask me dumb questions like, "Can I use the loaf of bread that is in the refrigerator for my lunch because the stuff in the pantry is gone?" DUH! YOU JUST WANT ME TO WAKE UP SO I WILL TALK TO YOU!

I get a negative on the preg test. Which is expected since I am only 8 days past ovulation. But, being impatient as I am, I want to know as soon as possible. Problem is, that automatically puts me in a sour mood. I HAVE been ttc for 16 months now with two miscarriages!

What is the correct balance of time for a mother? Sometimes I wonder if ttc is unfair to my other children? Should I be obsessing over getting pregnant all the time? Should I be taking them on more vacations instead of paying out of pocket for a midwife because my health insurance wont cover a midwife?
I tell myself that sacrifice is part of being in a family but I still have that nagging question...How much is enough for your children?

What pushes us to get out of bed every morning? In my case it definitely is not money! I have two beautiful children that make me smile, that need me!

I asked Billy a simple question the other day, I said, "What days does my daughter get her hair washed?" Do you know that he looked at me like I was crazy! It was right then and there that I decided my children would NOT live if I wasnt around. LOL

Why do mother's automatically know what needs to be done and when ,but father's cannot. They only get things done if you tell them over and over and make sure they understand that if they mess this up, mom is gonna be very angry!

I was a single mother for seven years and I automatically did everything. Now that I am married, Billy wants to help me with stuff. I have a really hard time letting him. I just know that I can do it faster and more efficiently and it seems more simple to just do it then ask someone else to do it then, risk them not doing it or doing it wrong. People say that I am a control freak and that I need to let others help me but do they realize that it is second nature for me to just get things done?

Are all mom's like this?

My next blog is going to be about: Who am I?
It will talk about not forgetting about your individuality when you are a mother....see ya tomorrow!