New page, new journey

Well, Long time no blog...I don't know why but I really just haven't felt like blogging. Didn't really feel like I had anything I wanted to say.

Anyways, today is my new journey of trying NOT to conceive. I have decided to quit obsessing over it and to just be happy with the two beautiful children I have and call it quits. Today marks the end of a horribly stressful 18 month journey of trying to conceive. Its not fair to myself or my children. The one problem is, my husband desperately wants a child of his own but to be completely honest, I don't think he can have children which is our problem. I am going to have him get a Sperm Analysis just to make sure but its pretty obvious.

So, tonight marks the last night of baseball in our house. My daughter finished her softball year off with a great tournament this last weekend. Covan's last game is tonight. Although, he starts football on July 5th and Hallie starts cheerleading. I really enjoy watching them play baseball and softball. It is my favorite time of year. They both are extremely talented at it so it makes it so much more enjoyful.

I planned a vacation with two of my sisters for Aug 13-16. Really excited to do that. Wish my other sister would come but maybe she will change her mind.

We are going to San Fransisco for four days. Not too long but at least enough time to relax for a weekend and not too long where everything will fall apart at home.

I am starting a new page in my life as I said in the title. I am going to stop ttc and get extremely healthy. Not health freak or anything but get my body toned up. I am not really over weight but I don't get much exercise and my muscles are decreasing which causes my back to hurt. I am tired of my arms looking flabby and my back hurting so here I go.

I am going to weigh soon and then go from there. I don't really have a goal weight because I am not unhappy with my weight right now, I just want to be stronger and more fit.

I havent' discussed all of this with my husband but he is supportive in whatever it is that I decide to do.

My son is leaving this weekend to spend a week with my parents . They don't get out of school until tomorrow. Then next weekend I am picking him up and dropping off my daughter for two weeks. She is going to go on vacation with my parents. I am a little sad about that but I know the break will be nice.

Thats all for now. Now that I am not ttc and spending all day on there, I am going to be blogging daily and also...working out....crafting...reading and trying to start my online business which I will talk about more later!